boring saturday

bored bored bored and bored ~ 

what a really boring saturday .

haven't gone anywhere since morning . 

looking for anything i can do that can ease this feeling 

but there is NOTHING 

want to be with boyf but he's now band-ing with his friends 

and i'm pretty sure i have to wait long long long time 

Nah ! i'm kinda sad or disappointed but nothing i can do . except waiting waiting . meanwhile i hate waiting . and he knows that .

aaaa   .

i'm supposed to be hanging around with my friends but they're having their own business .

i asked dad if he has planned anything for our Christmas holiday . 

he said he hasn't yet

then i requested Bali or Lombok or Bintang or Manado for Christmas holiday vact , 

but he refused omg . i really really wanna go beach ! 

oh come on daddy . 

or i'll go there by myself . haha . you know i won't .

it's almost 12.00 pm but i still have no idea what will i do next maybe i'll take a nap while waiting for boyF . 

oh why does time go by so slowly ? 

( remember of Hung Up by Madonna ) 

I played Guitar Hero indonesian version this morning versus my brother . 

and somehow i  felt that Indonesian songs' are so ALAY haha but don't know why i still love Indonesians' .

than Chinese's haha . 

oh FS now is becoming so BORING . B-O-R-I-N-G . 

but i won't be inactive in FSing . 

cause the only way to have a chit chat with my schoolmates is by FSing and COMMENTing .

only few of them that have FACEBOOK or MSN or YM .

so oldish ! 

Hugs and Kisses

vanessa's wanting more more more more hugs :) 

love love <3

my Bahasa Sunda test was not so difficult . 

i could handle it successfully . 

pray me for a great score :) 

and i got 100 for my Economy test. Yippieee. 

my violin's teacher asked me to practice for the Christmas celebration in my church .

He asked me to play the Christmas song but i'm not ready yet .

Omg he haven't taught me about playing in C string . 

and the song is played in C string . 

Hah! i might reject it  

I don't like to show off people or audience 

Friends watched a movie this noon but i didn't join . 

i had a math class huhu 

Haven't got any plan for tomorrow

any idea?

maybe i'm gonna go to Jakarta wif my family . 

I really really want to watch twilight movie but it'll be showed on midnight show .

:c and i'm pretty sure mom and dad won't permit me .

by the way, Just Stand Up which is sung by the topsingers is really really great . 

Not so in the mood

thursday 8.25 PM

haa yesterday i couldn't go online cause there was a project that i had to finish it 

physics oh physics

luckily, the presentation was successful . 

my group can answer almost all the questions . 

haha . 

was so busy yesterday . 

but they were done . 

tomorrow will have the Bahasa Sunda test  

hope i can do it even i don't study 

haha dreaming

just kidding i'll study later

had a quarrel again 

with him . 

OMG so tired . but things are okay now 

oh so not in the mood of blog 

sorry. post later. 

School

hello people  .

today was so weird . 

english test was not too difficult 

by i couldn't mention the synonym of conventional 

oh so sad :c

hope i'll get the best score :) 

I REALLY REALLY HATE SPORT 

this subject is so useless 

and i kinda don't like the teacher . 

hh. 

i got bad score on endurance test this noon . 

oh come on  . 

i can't be so strong  in sport . 

hhh . 

I HATE SPORT 

and he was so weird . 

he stayed quite and didn't want to talk to me .

OMG what the freak? 

hm. think about my school .

only a few months to go i'll be graduated . 

well i haven't done the final test yet 

but i'm sure that i'll finish it easily haha

and only a few months to go 

i'll be in senior high school

which i'm pretty sure will be much better than junior high school

but i still haven't decide 

which high school i want to enter . 

well i wanted to go BPK Penabur SHS in Bandung but mom didn't permit me .

She said it's too far and somewhateverthing la . 

Hm. Maybe Regina Pacis again . 

ah so bored with Regina Pacis lah , 

but i have no choice again

hah . i hope the SHS in Recis will be more fun than the JHS 

pray me luck . 

;] 

Monday

i'm currently loves LOVEBUG by Jonas brothers

so cute :) and one of great songs of them 

checking my email and there's one from my uncle

hey uncle, long time no see you :) 

today was so cold  .

rain was falling from the midnight until the noon . 

and luckily it stops already . 

haha . 

haven't got my dinner and i'm sooo hungry 

but dont know why i don't want to eat

i'm not in DIET 

hm, tomorrow will have ENGLISH test 

and i'm so lazy to study

cause i don't know what to study 

gotta be off now . 

i don't feel the urge of blog . hehee sorry  .  

Not really love MONDAY ! 

Nice Weekend

yesterday went to Bandung with my whole family

Dad drove the car

Went to Kings Plaza to hang around 

Mom bought new shoes there i bought nothing so did dad and my bro

Then dad dropped us at Paris Van Java cause he had a meeting in somewhere

Went shopping for my grandma's gifts 

Then i searched for bikini in Roxy 

but they were all so big

So i bought nothing again

Mom and bro bought some drinks at J.Co and I bought a bowl of Snow Ice Cream it tasted good . 

Then at 6.00 pm , 

Mom, My Bro, and I watched movie at BlitzMegaplex . 

Laskar Pelangi was great . 

About 8.00 PM 

Dad took us again at PVJ

then we went villa 

had a tight sleep --

This morning , Went to GOR Pajajaran

and had breakfast there with my family . 

I bought a chicken porridge 

which was very gooood 

:D 

and had lunch at my grandma's birthday party 

Ta Yang Suki 

I ate a lot lol . 

Finally, we went home 

Phiuuu . My nice weekend :) 

P.S miss my friends

and him :) 

Don't wanna miss a thing

i met him 

my ex crush 

who broke my heart into pieces 

i said hello to him

to a man that i hated 

he was walking with his friends one of his friends is jerk 

J i hate you ! 

today i had a lil' fight again with my bf

omg he's like so care with the basketball thing and the tournament

and well i felt so sad because of it .

it's like i have sacrificed my time and myself for basketball and him 

but he never , at least don't want to leave basketball for only a day 

but it's over lah 

he apologized to me 

and well, i can't reject his . 

cause i really don't want to miss him  

tomorrow will have economy test

pray me luck okay

: ] 

memories

huuh. today's  my bad day

old memories come back to me 

and all of those memories are so close to me now

i just felt that those happened just yesterday 

you will never know how hurt it is

when you love someone 

deeply, sincerely, truly

but he never notice it

he never care for you 

never think of you

never dream of you

and when you think you will leave him

and search for another, better one

he seems don't want to let you go

his eyes say that 'don't go, stay with me' 

but his spoke tell the opposite

you're hurt

but you don't want to go

your heart says 'stay'

then you follow your heart

you stay but he doesn't change

and the worse, he says he still loves his ex

whose doesn't love him

you pray 

pray to God if He means to let you and him be together

but it doesn't works

finally, you go away 

you try to forget him

your heart is so broken 

and you promise yourself that you won't be in love anymore

you're closed off from love

you're sick

sick of love

and think that you're worthless

you're ugly

you're meaningless

it's hurt. 

broken heart is always hurts. 

no excuse.

it always hurts

when you teardrops fall down from your eyes

and he dumped you 

it hurts

HATE BASKETBALL

3's so damn stressing me out

here it goes everyday it's error

i miss my boyfriend

we had a lil quarrel this noon

he's been to busy wif basketball and i was so jealous wif it

haha

but it's ok

we're okay now

he's studying now for the tests tomorrow

haah. world's becoming so lonely without him

okay i'm becoming so superfluous >.<

today was so hard for me for I and for D

our boyfriends left us just only for the basketball things

and tomorrow i think will be harder

they'll have the BM cup 

which is mean we have to wait wait wait 

haaahh

i'm still confused would I watch the match? 

cos i am not really in the mood of watching hearing and talking about BASKETBALL things

if today's our last day

hey hey sorry for not updating lately. 

i'm not in the mood of posting any blog. sorry guys. 

well it also cause BLOG isn't as exist as the friendster and facebook huh 

on Monday last week, we got a really bad and shocking news

in the morning, when the conference began, the principal told us this news

we lost our friend , Herlina

some of us still didn't believe it 

she died at 3.00 am in the morning that day

then after school all of my school's member visited Sinar Kasih to say goodbye for her for the last time. bye, friend. you'll always in our deepest heart

then, on Wednesday, my classmates and I went to Pratista.

we had retreat for 3 days and 2 nights there. 

It was  very very very fun 

yet in the beginning we thought it wasn't going to be fun there cause the teachers didn't allow us to bring our ph and also the cameras that we brought we must put them to our teacher not only the cameras and the phs 

the teachers also didn't allowed nael to bring his guitar

but we really had tons of fun in PRATISTA, BANDUNG

the pastors that we thought would be so old were very very friendly

and yes, for the first time i saw my whole classmates cried 

so did I. 

it's going to be our unforgettable moments in our life :] 

keep rockin' friends :D 

p.s for my boyfriend ; i love love love you more than i can tell ;p 

Scholarship oh Scholarship :c

feel bored . 

nothing to do i have no homework but tomorrow i'll have my math test for statistic 

well i'm good enough in that haha no mean to show-off

lazy to study and dont know what to study

chatting with my BF really really miss him

Hey i just heard the gossip , 

they said my school will be upgraded to International School

So the name would be Regina Pacis International School 

Hahaha i thought it wouldn't be real

i meant they just told bullshits 

But, it really is 

Some teachers are having training in somewhere i dont know

Can't imagine how my school would be if the teachers talk with english for all-subjects

Except Sundanese i think haha

well most of students are not so good in English would it be OK? 

Ah whatsoever 

Oh yes i almost forget the most fucking sadly news i got today 

i failed 

I failed to get the scholarship

Esther and Dhea (again) who got it 

And now i can't and won't believe any SECRETS again ==

So i deleted a note which i wrote about my desire and hope to get scholarship 

how sad i am :( 

phiuuff

have no times for having fun as much as i used to

extra classes were very very exhausting 

especially tuesday omg after the extra classes i still have more lessons 

shit 

sometimes i just remember of my childhood when the school hasn't gone this bad and i still have lotsa times for playing and having fun 

i miss the time when i was in elementary school

cause being a junior high school student stresses me out !

calm down the pain are gonna be ended after all this shits i meant after the hard study and after the FINAL TEST we're gonna have tons of fucking fun times haha  

i just miss my bf he's so adorable and makes my world and days become greater 

he's one of the reasons why i keep going to school hahaha 

Saturday

saturday morning just woke up from my sleep 

yesterday was Francis Day we all brought some traditional food and drinks then we put them on our class' tables which have been prepared   all the classes did the same 

it's like our school's halloween party haha

i guess i won't go anywhere today boring saturday 

2 days again the ninth grader must join the extra classes  

argh how damn is it 

guys, i didn't get my rank 

The first rank was Ayudhea  whose very very very smart even she was born in '95 it means she's younger than us

the second rank was Esther ayudhea's bestfriend okay she's very tidy 

the third rank was Eliza one of my bestfriends she's tidy and her IQ's higher than me 

so sad. that third person got a member card of Ancol so they can enter the Ancol for free :c