Christmas Time

tomorrow is christmas ! 

yay i really love christmas time . 

well there's no snow here . 

not like in other countries with sub-tropic climates . 

oh why there isn't any snow here . 

snow oh snow come down here !

hm. still at home. not going anywhere. 

and somehow i just lost my boyF .

well i meant i don't break up with him .

after taking shower, he didn't reply my messages until now .

where the heck is he going huh ? 

forget me ? oh wtf . 

have no plan yet for today .

mom's going shop to Suryakencana .

she asked me to join but i refused .

well i'm not in the mood to go anywhere

but yeah staying at home is kinda boring too .

my mind's so hard to understand ya? haha .

today Mei is going to go to Magelang .

She'll have her vacation there .

oh lucky her .

the day after tomorrow, Eliza will go there too with her family . 

Rio will go to Surabaya-Bali with his family .

My boyFriend is in Sulawesi now spending the holiday with his family and will go to Toraja soon . and of course he will have so much fun there . 

How about me? damn shit, i'm not going any special place for this holiday . 

will spend my holiday in Bandung .

as usual and have the fireworks party in Lembang with my family and cousins .

wondering my christmas gift

counting down the days to christmas . 

2 days to go . 

yes . now is 23rd December and there is still no christmas tree in my house . 

and also no christmas ornaments .

i just feel like it isn't December yet . 

mom and dad are so lazy to set up the christmas tree . yet we dont stay at home lately . 

yesterday went out to ITC Mangga Dua and bought new bag, new Ts, new dress ! yayy . 

i'll wear new dress to the christmas celebration in church and in school . 

its kinda simple and damn it's fcuking white . i love white . okay it isn't white at all it has black stripes there . lol .

slept at 1.00 am and woke up at 4.30 am 

my boyF went to his house in Sulawesi so he called me while he was in airport just wanted to talk to me cos he says he miss me . so do I babe . 

now he's taking a nap in his father's friend's car while they're on the way to his house there . 

fyi, he's going to go to Tana Toraja ! wow . i'm wondering i can go there soon . 

i talked about it with him , how i want so much to discover indonesia . 

yes. i really really want to . 

really . 

well . friends are having their own holiday and here i am . stay at home . and dont know what to do and to go .

damn i miss you babe and friendS . so bad . 

I Want You So Bad

hm.. today was my last day of school this year. 

finally . i get my holiday time . 

after this tiring week . 

and hard week for me . and my boyF . 

yes . yesterday i had a fight with him .

it's a fight . 

not only a quarrel . cause i've never been in a fight before or can we say bad quarrel like this before . 

he was so angry with me  . i dont know if he was really angry with me or just disappointed .

well . i won't talk about it again . it was really really hurt me . 

i cried and i guess he did it too . 

huff . yes . this week my bF and me have had some quarrels . 

oh my God . 

tomorrow i'll go to jakarta and will stay there until monday or sunday . 

then i'll go church on christmas day . 

and on 26th Dec i'll go to Bandung and will stay there for about a week and celebrate the new year's eve there . 

oh can you imagine how much will i fcukin' miss him .

by the way, we're heading for Christmas day . !! 

well . 2008 is going to be over . 

let us welcoming 2009 ! 

:D :D yippie . 

can't wait for my holidaaay ! 

Heya I'm back from hibernating !

heya . i miss blogging . 

sorry for not updated lately . 

i wasn't in the mood of blogging , facebook-ing even fs-ing . 

dont know why .

and jerks. speedy isn't longer free anymore .

well . i'm facing my final exam of this semester . 

tomorrow will be the last day . 

so far dont have much problems. 

IPS WAS FCUKING DIFFICULT lah . 

yeah i didn't study much on sunday nor read em . 

my brain's full full full . 

oh gals, i really miss my boyF .

well, i have watched twilight . 

it was really really cool . 

Edward Cullen was very handsome with his killer-eyes . which was really really hypnotized me . 

okay he's the 2nd man that has beautiful eyes after my boyF . hahaa. 

and the story yeah not so bad but kinda boring . -.-

i heard that some parts are missing . 

dont know why .  maybe it's been cut .  

friends and I are planning to watch movie tomorrow to celebrate and welcome our free day from exams . 

hahaa . 

oh yeah, bad news, Fiona's sick . She's now in Pantai Indah Kapuk hospital . 

Dear God, please save her and free her from her suffering sickness . amen . 

boring saturday

bored bored bored and bored ~ 

what a really boring saturday .

haven't gone anywhere since morning . 

looking for anything i can do that can ease this feeling 

but there is NOTHING 

want to be with boyf but he's now band-ing with his friends 

and i'm pretty sure i have to wait long long long time 

Nah ! i'm kinda sad or disappointed but nothing i can do . except waiting waiting . meanwhile i hate waiting . and he knows that .

aaaa   .

i'm supposed to be hanging around with my friends but they're having their own business .

i asked dad if he has planned anything for our Christmas holiday . 

he said he hasn't yet

then i requested Bali or Lombok or Bintang or Manado for Christmas holiday vact , 

but he refused omg . i really really wanna go beach ! 

oh come on daddy . 

or i'll go there by myself . haha . you know i won't .

it's almost 12.00 pm but i still have no idea what will i do next maybe i'll take a nap while waiting for boyF . 

oh why does time go by so slowly ? 

( remember of Hung Up by Madonna ) 

I played Guitar Hero indonesian version this morning versus my brother . 

and somehow i  felt that Indonesian songs' are so ALAY haha but don't know why i still love Indonesians' .

than Chinese's haha . 

oh FS now is becoming so BORING . B-O-R-I-N-G . 

but i won't be inactive in FSing . 

cause the only way to have a chit chat with my schoolmates is by FSing and COMMENTing .

only few of them that have FACEBOOK or MSN or YM .

so oldish ! 

Hugs and Kisses

vanessa's wanting more more more more hugs :) 

love love <3

my Bahasa Sunda test was not so difficult . 

i could handle it successfully . 

pray me for a great score :) 

and i got 100 for my Economy test. Yippieee. 

my violin's teacher asked me to practice for the Christmas celebration in my church .

He asked me to play the Christmas song but i'm not ready yet .

Omg he haven't taught me about playing in C string . 

and the song is played in C string . 

Hah! i might reject it  

I don't like to show off people or audience 

Friends watched a movie this noon but i didn't join . 

i had a math class huhu 

Haven't got any plan for tomorrow

any idea?

maybe i'm gonna go to Jakarta wif my family . 

I really really want to watch twilight movie but it'll be showed on midnight show .

:c and i'm pretty sure mom and dad won't permit me .

by the way, Just Stand Up which is sung by the topsingers is really really great . 

Not so in the mood

thursday 8.25 PM

haa yesterday i couldn't go online cause there was a project that i had to finish it 

physics oh physics

luckily, the presentation was successful . 

my group can answer almost all the questions . 

haha . 

was so busy yesterday . 

but they were done . 

tomorrow will have the Bahasa Sunda test  

hope i can do it even i don't study 

haha dreaming

just kidding i'll study later

had a quarrel again 

with him . 

OMG so tired . but things are okay now 

oh so not in the mood of blog 

sorry. post later. 

School

hello people  .

today was so weird . 

english test was not too difficult 

by i couldn't mention the synonym of conventional 

oh so sad :c

hope i'll get the best score :) 

I REALLY REALLY HATE SPORT 

this subject is so useless 

and i kinda don't like the teacher . 

hh. 

i got bad score on endurance test this noon . 

oh come on  . 

i can't be so strong  in sport . 

hhh . 

I HATE SPORT 

and he was so weird . 

he stayed quite and didn't want to talk to me .

OMG what the freak? 

hm. think about my school .

only a few months to go i'll be graduated . 

well i haven't done the final test yet 

but i'm sure that i'll finish it easily haha

and only a few months to go 

i'll be in senior high school

which i'm pretty sure will be much better than junior high school

but i still haven't decide 

which high school i want to enter . 

well i wanted to go BPK Penabur SHS in Bandung but mom didn't permit me .

She said it's too far and somewhateverthing la . 

Hm. Maybe Regina Pacis again . 

ah so bored with Regina Pacis lah , 

but i have no choice again

hah . i hope the SHS in Recis will be more fun than the JHS 

pray me luck . 

;] 

Monday

i'm currently loves LOVEBUG by Jonas brothers

so cute :) and one of great songs of them 

checking my email and there's one from my uncle

hey uncle, long time no see you :) 

today was so cold  .

rain was falling from the midnight until the noon . 

and luckily it stops already . 

haha . 

haven't got my dinner and i'm sooo hungry 

but dont know why i don't want to eat

i'm not in DIET 

hm, tomorrow will have ENGLISH test 

and i'm so lazy to study

cause i don't know what to study 

gotta be off now . 

i don't feel the urge of blog . hehee sorry  .  

Not really love MONDAY ! 

Nice Weekend

yesterday went to Bandung with my whole family

Dad drove the car

Went to Kings Plaza to hang around 

Mom bought new shoes there i bought nothing so did dad and my bro

Then dad dropped us at Paris Van Java cause he had a meeting in somewhere

Went shopping for my grandma's gifts 

Then i searched for bikini in Roxy 

but they were all so big

So i bought nothing again

Mom and bro bought some drinks at J.Co and I bought a bowl of Snow Ice Cream it tasted good . 

Then at 6.00 pm , 

Mom, My Bro, and I watched movie at BlitzMegaplex . 

Laskar Pelangi was great . 

About 8.00 PM 

Dad took us again at PVJ

then we went villa 

had a tight sleep --

This morning , Went to GOR Pajajaran

and had breakfast there with my family . 

I bought a chicken porridge 

which was very gooood 

:D 

and had lunch at my grandma's birthday party 

Ta Yang Suki 

I ate a lot lol . 

Finally, we went home 

Phiuuu . My nice weekend :) 

P.S miss my friends

and him :) 

Don't wanna miss a thing

i met him 

my ex crush 

who broke my heart into pieces 

i said hello to him

to a man that i hated 

he was walking with his friends one of his friends is jerk 

J i hate you ! 

today i had a lil' fight again with my bf

omg he's like so care with the basketball thing and the tournament

and well i felt so sad because of it .

it's like i have sacrificed my time and myself for basketball and him 

but he never , at least don't want to leave basketball for only a day 

but it's over lah 

he apologized to me 

and well, i can't reject his . 

cause i really don't want to miss him  

tomorrow will have economy test

pray me luck okay

: ] 

memories

huuh. today's  my bad day

old memories come back to me 

and all of those memories are so close to me now

i just felt that those happened just yesterday 

you will never know how hurt it is

when you love someone 

deeply, sincerely, truly

but he never notice it

he never care for you 

never think of you

never dream of you

and when you think you will leave him

and search for another, better one

he seems don't want to let you go

his eyes say that 'don't go, stay with me' 

but his spoke tell the opposite

you're hurt

but you don't want to go

your heart says 'stay'

then you follow your heart

you stay but he doesn't change

and the worse, he says he still loves his ex

whose doesn't love him

you pray 

pray to God if He means to let you and him be together

but it doesn't works

finally, you go away 

you try to forget him

your heart is so broken 

and you promise yourself that you won't be in love anymore

you're closed off from love

you're sick

sick of love

and think that you're worthless

you're ugly

you're meaningless

it's hurt. 

broken heart is always hurts. 

no excuse.

it always hurts

when you teardrops fall down from your eyes

and he dumped you 

it hurts

HATE BASKETBALL

3's so damn stressing me out

here it goes everyday it's error

i miss my boyfriend

we had a lil quarrel this noon

he's been to busy wif basketball and i was so jealous wif it

haha

but it's ok

we're okay now

he's studying now for the tests tomorrow

haah. world's becoming so lonely without him

okay i'm becoming so superfluous >.<

today was so hard for me for I and for D

our boyfriends left us just only for the basketball things

and tomorrow i think will be harder

they'll have the BM cup 

which is mean we have to wait wait wait 

haaahh

i'm still confused would I watch the match? 

cos i am not really in the mood of watching hearing and talking about BASKETBALL things

if today's our last day

hey hey sorry for not updating lately. 

i'm not in the mood of posting any blog. sorry guys. 

well it also cause BLOG isn't as exist as the friendster and facebook huh 

on Monday last week, we got a really bad and shocking news

in the morning, when the conference began, the principal told us this news

we lost our friend , Herlina

some of us still didn't believe it 

she died at 3.00 am in the morning that day

then after school all of my school's member visited Sinar Kasih to say goodbye for her for the last time. bye, friend. you'll always in our deepest heart

then, on Wednesday, my classmates and I went to Pratista.

we had retreat for 3 days and 2 nights there. 

It was  very very very fun 

yet in the beginning we thought it wasn't going to be fun there cause the teachers didn't allow us to bring our ph and also the cameras that we brought we must put them to our teacher not only the cameras and the phs 

the teachers also didn't allowed nael to bring his guitar

but we really had tons of fun in PRATISTA, BANDUNG

the pastors that we thought would be so old were very very friendly

and yes, for the first time i saw my whole classmates cried 

so did I. 

it's going to be our unforgettable moments in our life :] 

keep rockin' friends :D 

p.s for my boyfriend ; i love love love you more than i can tell ;p 

Scholarship oh Scholarship :c

feel bored . 

nothing to do i have no homework but tomorrow i'll have my math test for statistic 

well i'm good enough in that haha no mean to show-off

lazy to study and dont know what to study

chatting with my BF really really miss him

Hey i just heard the gossip , 

they said my school will be upgraded to International School

So the name would be Regina Pacis International School 

Hahaha i thought it wouldn't be real

i meant they just told bullshits 

But, it really is 

Some teachers are having training in somewhere i dont know

Can't imagine how my school would be if the teachers talk with english for all-subjects

Except Sundanese i think haha

well most of students are not so good in English would it be OK? 

Ah whatsoever 

Oh yes i almost forget the most fucking sadly news i got today 

i failed 

I failed to get the scholarship

Esther and Dhea (again) who got it 

And now i can't and won't believe any SECRETS again ==

So i deleted a note which i wrote about my desire and hope to get scholarship 

how sad i am :( 

phiuuff

have no times for having fun as much as i used to

extra classes were very very exhausting 

especially tuesday omg after the extra classes i still have more lessons 

shit 

sometimes i just remember of my childhood when the school hasn't gone this bad and i still have lotsa times for playing and having fun 

i miss the time when i was in elementary school

cause being a junior high school student stresses me out !

calm down the pain are gonna be ended after all this shits i meant after the hard study and after the FINAL TEST we're gonna have tons of fucking fun times haha  

i just miss my bf he's so adorable and makes my world and days become greater 

he's one of the reasons why i keep going to school hahaha 

Saturday

saturday morning just woke up from my sleep 

yesterday was Francis Day we all brought some traditional food and drinks then we put them on our class' tables which have been prepared   all the classes did the same 

it's like our school's halloween party haha

i guess i won't go anywhere today boring saturday 

2 days again the ninth grader must join the extra classes  

argh how damn is it 

guys, i didn't get my rank 

The first rank was Ayudhea  whose very very very smart even she was born in '95 it means she's younger than us

the second rank was Esther ayudhea's bestfriend okay she's very tidy 

the third rank was Eliza one of my bestfriends she's tidy and her IQ's higher than me 

so sad. that third person got a member card of Ancol so they can enter the Ancol for free :c

Extra Class!

okay the weather becomes so unfriendly  .

some of friends are cold luckily i'm still on my health 

hehe 

tomorrow the report will be given  to us 

i'm well optimistic that mine will be good not too wonderful but still ok la. 

except for the Bahasa Indonesia. the first damn score that i get is totally an embarrassing one! 

30 of 100 what the hell ! 

next month all the ninth grader must do the extra class 

it prepares us for the final test that the gossip says it will be held at the end of february 09 

bad news yes .  

FRIEND TO THE FOE

hey guys. well my math score were sucks. 

i got 10, 6.25, and 8.12 :(

still waiting for my english' score 

yesterday, i had a trouble with my friends 

i got angry with them cos they was hiding a secret about M to me

i just couldn't think clearly 

all the negatives appeared in my brain

so i didn't reply their sms

they try to apologize for what have they done to me

but at night, D texted me again she said sorry 

okay finally i forgave them 

but this morning things became more complicated 

E didn't talk to me so did i 

I wouldn't talk to people who had mistake for me before she/he talked to me first

so here it went

E moved her sit

She cried at the first break

I didn't really care

hey it wasn't my fault at all

so at the second break i came to her i TRIED myself to talk to her about our task 

she just said a word without LOOKED TO MY FACE and WITH FUCKING INTONATION 

so i got really mad with her and just didn't want to talk to her again 

HEY IT WAS HER FAULT 

if you don't want to be friends with me again just go with YOUR BULLSHIT TEARS and YOUR FUCKING FACE. 

i hate her for sure. 

friend to the foe . 

what a shitty bad days ! 

Mom, let me go there!

well i dont know what to post. haha. 

so far my scores are good. well excuse the Art and the history . 

i didn't reach my target . argh . 

i got only 85 for the history . [my target's 90] :'( 

too bad la . 

poor my brother . 

he's having chicken pox . 

get well soon bro .

but how lucky he is, doctor doesnt allow him to take a bath for about a week . aaa  lucky !

okay he isn't that lucky . 

guys i cant tell ya how much i want to attend the a7x concert . 

i really love them especially zacky vengeance and synyster grates! they play guitar so perfectyly. *jealous. fiuhh 

but so fucked up my mom doesnt allow me . 

and the worse is RHEZA will attend it . 

well it doesnt mean i hate him but i hate the opportunity that he can go thereeee arghhhh

anyway, a song from A7x, A Little Piece of Heaven is amazing !! i'm pleased of it ...  

U know I'm no good

i'm currently listening to American Boy by Estelle . 

unique and good song . :D

hey sorry for not updated lately .

i'm heading my mid term tests . 

so can't be online for long time . 

well . i did some silly mistake in my math ! so fucked up !

but i still believe , i'll get good scores in math ! the secret mode : on . LOL 

tomorrow will be the 4th day of mid term tests . 

i'll have english and arts test . 

dont know what to study . haa . 

friends are planning to go to cinema on wednesday . after the last test . 

but, i'm not in the mood of going anywhere, even watch movie . 

so sorry friends . i just want to spend my whole day by sleeping sleeping and sleeping cz i had some troubles wif sleeping lately . 

so im gonna hibernating on wednesday :3 

LMAO 

Mid Term

today's so hot . 

just came back from grandma's house . after had some lil shopping at Botani Square . 

attaching&uploading some photos which dad asked me to send . 

There are about 25 photos left . :[ 

almost 3.00 pm . havent taken a nap :s

alone in home . 

mom and bro are going to Jambu Dua . take the cell phone . 

Im tired la . 

gonna take a math course tomorrow at 9.30 AM . 

so have to wake up earlier . too bad .

after that, Dina, Meilisa, Eliza, and I are going to study together in Dina's house .  

dont know if Fiona's going to join with us too . 

tomorrow will be our last day-off . T.T

we're gonna miss holiday so much . 

the bad-damn-shit thing in this month is on Friday , I'll do my mid term tests . 

which is mean, i've to study hard and no play within a week . 

how damn it is rite? 

But after that we're gonna have lotsa fun . :D:D 

can't wait the day it finish LOL . 

Well. a lil bit of anxiousness . 

Grade 9 is harder than grade 7 or 8 . 

we're heading the final tests of junior high school .

it decides our future . 

if we could past the test then we'll head the senior high school . but if we failed , we have to rehearse grade 9 again . 

in other word, grade 9 is deciding grade. we have to study hard and hard,  and decrease the time of playing . 

miss the time when i was in kindergarten . 

all play and no work . :3 

HOLIDAY

Finally I'm home again 

Holiday was suck. 

I went to Bandung and stayed there for only 3 days without go anywhere just stayed in my villa . 

Then I had to go to Jakarta cos my aunt and her family asked my mom's help to guide them in Jakarta .

Stayed there for 3 days again . 

Went to malls and shopped till money dropped

Last day in Jakarta, went to Waterbom Pantai Indah Kapuk , have lotsa fun there 

and my skin gets sunburned

fuck! 

day after, went to Bandung again . 

stayed there for 2 nights only cos dad wanted to avoid the traffic jam

and again, didn't go anywhere

stayed in villa , had chit chat wif cousins , played chess till my brain's in fire , played badminton on rainy day , and slept from noon till late night. lol. 

holiday makes me become sooooo nasty . 

takes a shower for a day

haha . 

and makes me become fatter . damn

missing my bf . 

cant wait to go to school

but dont wanna do my mid term tests . 

need some more days off 

but want to go somewhere interesting like beach 

another posts later . 

i havent taken bath today .lol.

HELLO MS.FUCKING COPYCAT!

I HATE S! for suree !! 

B E L I E V E

Here I stand

in the warmest autumn 

with you 

we're holding hands

seeing the sky turns to red

and the leaves falling down 

here we belong

in the most beautiful love story 

ever written

and somehow i just pray.. 

we'll never be apart

I always wake up with a painful thinking

Does he still love me today?

or maybe his love decreases. 

and somehow i wonder i'm wrong

we turn to cold water

but i still feel your warm body

season changes into winter

here we there

in the coldest winter 

ever existed 

but i still have you there

i still have your kind heart

that's why I know 

your love to me will never change 

haaaah :(

freakin' hell. im tired so much.

lots of tasks i have 2 finish in this week. 

no time for break. 

and the worst is, so many problems come over and over.

i feel like i have no power to live my days. 

haaa. 

but thanks God, you're here with me .. 

well well. few days to go to HOLIDAY!

but before HOLIDAY, tasks must be finished .

tomorrow, i'll have english test. 

listening test and vocab test. 

im not so good in vocab . huhu . 

publish another post later. have to go. byeee .

love isnt my life first priority

i'm currently listening to a song by kreesha turner - don't call me baby anymore . 

is a great song for me . 

okay, here we come, to the end of the week . 

weekend . 

and you know, i won't wake up late . 

ah . CB sucks . 

okay, i confess . 

today wasnt so great . 

so many things that ruined my day . 

it supposed to be a great day for me . but, ah, problems come in unpredictable time . 

well, school's going to be more and more sucks . 

especially for history, and other socials .. 

it makes me so crazy and make my hate to school increase . 

and the second shitty things happened, was i disputed wif my bf only caused by a lil problems that should not make us being egoist .

dina has gone . 

she's now in sindanglaya, i think shes having some boring tutorials there . haha. 

miss you dinaaa . 

okay, not exactly . 

hahaha . 

what else shall i tell ?

yeah . meimei's better now . but i think her heart doesnt get better .

mei, dont waste your time only for regretting and crying for him ! its useless . trust me . 

don't be sad cause it ended . but be thankful cause it happened . 

boys are jerks !

and dont make love your life priority . 

hff . more posts tomorrow.  g2g. byeee. 

missing youuuuu <3

hell o guys . 

huff . 

today was so boringgg . 

no boyfriend . 

my bf's going to puncak and joining a character building program . 

yeah, im gonna join it too at weekend . so fucked up !

well . i'm missing him so freakin much .

and i just lost my power . haha . 

oh God . 

rain starts falling . 

and i'm sick . well, its just flu . but i hate so much when i get flu . 

i can breathe normally .

huhu . too bad :( 

oh, poor meimei . she's sick too . 

get well soon mei . 

orgh . im dying here!

i miss him really . 

and i'm wondering how's tomorrow going to be? 

i won't see his face tomorrow .

huhu .

baby, come back hereeeee . 

okay, its a silly wish  .

and i think i'm going crazy . 

:S 

love drives me crazy . 

and i can't stop myself from being crazy . 

okay, now im becoming super super melancholic . 

shit ! 

argh . weekend .

hoaa . 

i  just came back from my weekend's holiday . 

i went to bandung . 

and fuck ! 

my glasses are broken . 

my brother made it . he stepped on it . okay, it wasn't his mistake at all . i put my glasses under the pillow and my brother who came from nowhere stepped on the pillow . orghh . 

i didn't go nowhere in Bandung . 

as usual,  i visited my grandma and some cousins .  

okay, my little cousin was a FREAK . 

he ran, jumped, and sometimes punched my bro . LOL . 

he was a freakin' hyperactive child . :P 

tomorrow i'll have a sociology test . 

damn, i haven't study yet . 

it kinda boring you know . -.- 

tomorrow, it's gonna be a month i'm being with my hero :p

lysm beib :)

hey! my bf is gonna have a haircut . huhu . 

i love his currently haircut . 

but, i know it's getting long and if he doesn't cut his hair, it's gonna be a nightmare for him .

cz there are mucho teachers who don't allow boys hv a long haircut . 

yesterday, i watched a pirated dvd . haha . thank God i live in Indonesia . :P 

the mummy 3 was so cool . 

jet li was soo cutee . 

haa . dont kno what to write again . 

my brain can't think in this moment . 

dont know why . 

might be cz i haven't eaten my dinner yet . 

lol. 

here's for today . 

byebye . 

bye bye august

holiday's over . 

back to school is a hard thing-to-do. 

here's come again, wake up at 5.45 am. 

sleep earlier. study. doing some fcukin' homeworks stuff. omg. 

btw, i'm welcoming septemberr..

hope things will be better than august in this month !

yeah. august was full of stories. 

some has forgotten. some reminds. 

august, i'm in love <3 

but for some people, august was a nightmare. 

i heard that some couple broke up in august. like V&A.  then Y&V [hey, it's not me!] 

i'm sorry to hear that guys. but believe me, it will get better in time. :) 

and yeah. september was a holy month for muslims. september >> fasting month.. 

studying's very disgusting! oops. i'm sorry cz i said it. 

but, the truth is. students don't like studying even they enjoy going to school and meeting friends. 

however, for me, schooling is sooo fun. i don't say that studying is soo fun. i say, school is soo fun. :P 

anyway, august, was a very unforgettable month. especially on 8th August. :P:P and i can't forget 8th august. iLysm. 

tomorrow 's going to be agung's bday ! 

happy bday boy! wish u all d bests. :D 

oia, i haven't told u ryt? i'm quitting fs. for unpredictable time. friendster is a beginning of probs. and i hate people whose doing some internet criminal. like, backstabbing people even she's her friend on FRIENDSTER.. DAMN SHIT! 

so i decided to not check or open my friendster acc. so, friends, i will not reply your comments on fs. 

sorry guys. 

what a busy days. lol

what a fcuk busy days ! 

im getting busy wif holidays stuff ! 

well, it doesn't mean im not happy wif TEACHERS' kindess [hey, can i call that?] but i can't go online for long time. im getting busy lately xp 

i'm sorry for not updating and i won't update blog for myb 3 days later. 

bye bye . 

oh yeahh . happy bday to devi nd abe . nd happy anniversary to abe and icha ! :3 

ninth grader

arrghh. gila! gak tau kenapa.. sejak gw kelas 9, kayanya semangat belajar gw ngedrop abis. baru liat buku 3 menit ajah udah males banget. ga niat..
ahh ahh ! pengennya internetan mulu, bukan salah gw juga sih, salah speedy kenapa ngasih gratisan. hehe.
besok ulangan fisika. dan sekarang gw belom belajar. at least gw dah belajar itungannya di tempat les. tapi teorinya itulohh, malay abis..
kayaknya gw perlu something yang bisa bikin gw jadi semangat belajar lagi nih! tapi apa ya.. gw jg bingung..
biasa sih gw jd semangat lagi kalo udah liat temen-temen sekelas gw nilainya pada bagus-bagus sedangkan gw jelek sendiri. nah itu yang bkin gw kesel dan akhirnya jadi giat belajar. haha.

belom lagi gw kudu susulan-susulan gara-gara dispen! argh. emang kadang enak sih dispen teh. tapi bayangin! gara-gara dispen juga, gw ngasal banget ngisi ulangan sunda!! arghh! bete dah gw.
tapi untunglah, sekarang ini nd mudah2an seterusnya, dah ga ada acara-acara yang mengharuskan gw dispen lagi.

tadi, gw baru balik dr sekolah jam stgh 4an. gara-gara foto buat keperluan ujian. duh gila dah! gw nunggu di sekolah dr jam 1 sampe jam stgh 4 cuma buat sekali jepret! what the fuck banget sih. sial banget gw masuk kelas 9F. dah mah kalo conference duduk paling pinggir, trus kalo lagi macem2 gini nih, dah paling terakhir. arrghh.
kadang-kadang gw berpikir, kenapa ya gw ga dimasukkin ke kelas 9B ajah? (maunya..hehee)

ah! mau gimana juga. gw kudu mesti harus rajin belajar supaya nilai ulangan bagus. soalnya kalo nilai ulangan gw jelek mulu, nyokap bakal ngoceh : 'kamu sih pacaran mulu!'
percaya ngga percaya, gw ngedrop banget kalo dibilang gitu. takut disuru putus or takut pelajaran keteteran gara-gara pacaran.
huhu.


dah ah. mau belajar dulu.. bye bye blog!

my Lord. my Everything.

God knows,

what you need. what i need. what we need the most.

God gives us the bests. not the worsts.

He gives us more than we can ask..

or we can imagine..

but, we, never satisfy for what He's already given to us..

we don't thank HIM for what we've had..

and sometimes we don't realize how much and how big is His blessings..

He gives us health, so that we can do our works..

He gives us chances, so that we can get jobs, can study..

He bless us.. so that we can love each other, can be loved by the person that we love..

and i wanna thank GOD. before it's too late..

i wanna thank GOD for what He has given to me..

everything was amazing..

family, friends, love, and all the things i have now..

is because you..

i'm exist, it's because of YOU.

no one like YOU.

thanks GOD. for the love.

for the blessings. and for the chances..

i'm very blessed.

you give me friends to share, and love to spread.

love

huaaa.
i love my life :D

everydays with you are like days in heaven. :P:P
LOL. thanks God, i'm having him

and I LOVE YOU SO

i'm currently missing you so much boy.

And I Love You So - Emi Fujita

And I love you so
The people ask me how
How i've lived till now
I tell them I don't know

I guess they understand
How lonely life has been
But life began again
The day you took my hand

And, yes, I know how lonely life can be
The shadows follow me
And the night won't set me free
But I don't let the evening get me down
Now that you're around me

And you love me too
Your thoughts are just for me
You set my spirit free
I'm happy that you do

The book of life is brief
And once a page is read
All but love is dead
That is my belief

And yes, i know how lonely life can be
The shadows follow me
And the night won't set me free
But I don't let the evening get me down
Now that you're around me

And I love you so
The people ask me how
How i've lived till now
I tell them i don't know



i'll sing it just for you..
to make you believe me.
that I LOVE YOU SO.

iLOVEyouuuuuu more than i can say. mwachiee xP

my second posting.
hihi.

mau ngeralat postingan yang tadi.. and i'm so lucky because of having you.
tadi ke GOR. nonton final basket smp cowo. menangg !!
sneng bangeeet. ga sia2 teriak2. dan tiket masuk yang mahal. 3x lipet dr harga biasa gituloh.
gak apa2 dehh. ga sia2 pokonya.
my bf was sooooooooooooooo cool. :P:P
jadi makin cintaaa. huahahaha.

28-20 lawan 18. supporter rp dikit. cz pada ga bsa soalnya kesorean.

monik jadian ama nael !!
devina jadian ama gida !!
waa.. anak basket udah pada taken ! ahaha.
cuma beberapa doang yang belom.
hihi.

thx GOD. rp menang! seneng banget!
sampe jingkrak2. *akhirnya, sendal jepit gue pegat dengan sukses :(*

gak apa2 deh..
demi cinta. alaah. :P:P

congratz yah buat naeljanda ama devigida. hihi. mudah2an langgeng. :D:D

ichaaaa. ciee ciee. cium pipi lagi dong ! ahhaah.

kemaren nd hari ini hari yang indah banget deeeeh.
banget banget banget.


mudah2an besok lebih indah dr hari ini. tapi besok ga bisa ketemu dia nii. hixhix. miss you so bad, om ! hhihi.

i'm sorry

hhh.
i thought it would be nice.
but once again, i'm wrong.

i'm sorry. i know i can't have all that i wish for..
i'm sorry for asking u to be perfect. to be always with me. .
i'm sorry.

080808. officially yours.

Thanks GOD for giving him to me..
He's my greatest gift..

Thanks GOD for making me believe..
that i still have him..
the one who makes me smile.
the one who loves me in any conditions..
the one who still waits me, when i was leaving for another..

Thanks GOD for giving me a faith..
a faith that makes me believe. i'll be happy with him..
he'll never disappointed me..

i love you..now..and i'll try to love you forever.

about loving you

in every sentence. there must be words.
in every life. there must be love.

it's not about how to insist people to love you. or to insist your special one to feel the same way with you. it's how about to tell and go. to give him a freedom.
if you love him, want him to be yours, it's not love. because love is about freedom.

like a relationship, we start it, and we must realize, sometime it will end. in other word, we won't be together forever. there must be a time that we have to leave or he has to leave. we shall not regret it or be sad of it.
it's a destiny. we must accept it with an openhearted. we don't need to find out how to change the destiny, or to make our love lasts forever. all we have to do, is to prepare ourselves, to be ready. so then, if the destiny take us to the end, we will be sincere.

LOVE isn't just a game. it isn't about lose and win. it isn't just about if you win, you'll get her/him. and if you lose, you'll get nothing. LOVE IS ABOUT DEFEND.

LOVE is a task. LOVE is something that coloring our life. bittersweet, sweet, tears, laugh..
LOVE can makes your heart feel the real happiness, but it can let you down.
don't ever cry for LOVE. because LOVE never gives you SADNESS. it's you who invite the sadness come to you. love brings you down but never let your heart be broken.


>>special for MEILISA.
hey girl, your life isn't just about LOVE..don't be sad for what has happened. :D

welcoming august!

long timeeeeeeeeeeee no seeeee. i really miss my blog. lol.
well, so much GOOD THINGS i have to tell.
firstly, my new class is not bad lorh. well, 8B's still better than 9F. *really miss my 8B classmates. huhu.

and really, my boy is totally great. hahha. he makes me happy for this several weeks or days.

and guys, today's 1st august. I REALLY LOVE TODAY.
really really love. hihi.
i took my guitar course, and i decided to take another music course again. and my choice is violin! well i must ask my dad first. if he allows me, i'm gonna learn violin soon. yippie.

i finally found someone

once she loved. she will be loved forever.

i was in my DARKEST WEEK. where i couldn't find myself in a good mood.
i didn't notice who's loving me. all i cared just, he. HE, the one who broke my heart and made me so sick of love.

but now, i realise, everywhere i go, i just can't let go from him. he always be on my mind.. now, i realise, there still one man, who loves me. and will always love me. in every condition.

oh yeah. the 7th grader aren't so bad. they're nice. and lots of nice boys there. lol.

i can do nothing

i was having a good time, until he (K) came. he said he hadn't had the answer yet. he couldn't answer me. then i asked him, when will he answer me. he said, he doesn't know.

it's broken. torn apart.

all i've dreamed before. the date. the time. the time i've lost just for waiting you.

it's broken. torn apart.

all i've wished for. your love. your care. your heart. your life.

it's broken. torn apart.

maybe you're the one who makes me love you.

maybe you're the one who breaks my heart.

when i wanted to go..

when i decided to give up

when i decided to let you go.

when i decided to hold on to my faith.

to keep myself away from you.

you said. dont you go.

you gave me a light that leads me on.

you gave me hope. and i wondered you love me.

and now you just keep me hanging.
you don't give answer. but you don't want to let me go.
how long will i suffer this pain.
fear of losing that you can't handle
me neither
you say, just wait until the day comes.
i say, no, i can't wait
no. i don't say. i can't say.
i'm not brave enough to say that.

just like you. i have fear of losing.

losing someone i love.

losing someone i want to be with.

losing someone who breaks my heart.

twice. not once.
until it really really hurt.

i'm sorry. i never meant to love you this much.

perfect time to break my heart

booo. i just came back frm sg. it was a great trip. i went to siloso beach and watched some attractions in sentosa. songs of the sea was totally cool. then i went shoppin' shoppin' till drop. yea. till really really drop. haha. we went shopping from 9 am to 9 pm. lol. and bought lots of new things. branded store were in a big sale. and saw bitches were bitching! LOL. went to chinatown, ate lunch/dinner there. chicken rice was really delicious. @.@ i'm missing it! haha. then went to the esplanade. and shitty, the merlion @ singapore river or wtf is the name, was under renovation. i couldn't take some photos wif it anyway. T.T

well, me and K planned to meet on friday. i was really happy wif that. but, so sadly, he canceled it. huhu. he said, he had to do some practice for performance. -.-
okay, it was one of bad news. K doesn't love me. and he said that. but i still love him. :( K still loves his ex. T.T
but his ex doesn't love him anymore.
so sadly, isn't it?

anyway, it was a great trip.
for K : it wasn't a great time to break my heart. thank you all the way for broken my holiday and my heart.

Y is having a crush on someone. someone overseas. like what i did. haha.
goodluck for u. :D




I still love You K

holiday things

heyyaaa.. i'm totally missin' my bloggg. sorry for not updating..i've been soo busy. lol. then my suck internet connection didn't work. wtf. -.-
guess what time is it? it's 5.00 AM. i woke up @ 4.00 AM even i went sleep late. i couldn't sleep anyway. i dont kno why. my brain kept thinking about anything. then i became worry for some things. OMG. what a terrible night at all.
guys, today i'll go to somewhere. no, i'm not gonna die yet. there are still lots of things i must do before i die. haha. i'm out to singapore. for 5 days. my dad won't go wif us. he has works to do. then i'll go wif my mom, bro, and my auntiee :)
hm.. honestly, i wish i could meet him. K. but he must go to school. too bad. :( or maybe he just doesn't want to meet me.

***fuck! my incon's going to hell again, i meant, it's not working properly.

hm.. that's all for today. i'm off for a week. gonna miss y' all! and wish me luck on my holiday! because my mom, and my auntie never go overseas without their husband..so then, my mom and auntie don't know SG well. neither me and my bro. haha.

is it you, i am looking for ?

i’m currently listening to In A Rush, a song by blackstreet, well, an old song, it’s great anyway.
Hey, i haven’t told you about the camp, yea? Well.. it wasn’t bad. All were tired. we walked to the forest. Then we had to do some tasks there. The place was really cool. It was a great place for taking some pictures. Especially, for me and my bestfriend, meilisa. We both like photography. And we got some cool objects there.
It was 5.00 in the afternoon when me, and my groupmates, and the leaders went to the forest. We walked and guess what,, we should not wear shoes or sandals. And by eyes closed, we had to walk for about 200 m. It was dark already. We walked quietly, and yeah, it’s the best time i ever had in my life i think. I could hear birds sang. And felt the cold weather which was very great. keren bgt! Apalagi, waktu buka mata, omg, kita bisa liat kunang-kunang! It was great, wasn’t it? After that, we got back to the villa and shared things that we’ve learned that day.
Night, we should sleep. :] i went outside, AND PRETTY AMAZING! The view was really really greaaaaaaat. The sky was clear and stars was shining so bright. gue berdiri di situ ampir 15 menitan. Berdiri dalam kehenigan ceritanya. LOL. Sumpah, gw bener-bener ngerasain HOW GREAT IS GOD’S LOVE. GOD dah ngasih kita berjuta anugrah, alam salah satunya. But, why do we break it?

Ups. I must be off now. Sorry sorry. Gw lom nyeritain semuanya nih. Termasuk cerita di mana gw digigit PACET! Buahaha. My first time digigit yang namanya pacet kinda lintah gitu deh. :S bye bye.

what for tomorrow

close your eyes, gimme your hands darlin, do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?

okay, i won't ask u for ur hand. and put it on my chest, :s
well.. a few days ago, i heard that my ex crush had been in a relationship.
yea. i'm freakin' surprised. and yea, i felt sad. i didn't know why. i'm sure that i'm not in love with him anymore, after he broke my heart.
and now , he's with another girl .
well, is it broken heart?
i'm not sure . well, i'm going to the basic again, when i had a crush in someone then i cried when he didn't care of me , or became angry and undescribeable-feeling when he left me.
lol. i prefer that moment to had a relationship. ahaha.
knp ya? kya lbi menantang gtu.LOL.

hmmpf. i just had a chat wif my ex. and shit happens, [it didn't caused by me lo] he's now kinda weird. or somethin' la.:s
once again, bukan karena gw!

hey, tomorrow i'm gonna go to some fuckin' place where me and my schoolmates will have so much fun [teachers say], we're gonna go camping or somethin like dat. well, i'm not in the mood of go anywhere and hv some outdoor activites, you know, girl's prob. :(

well .. i must be off now.cz i hv to prepare for 2morrow. hope tomorrow will be great. [well i dont think so]
bbye : ]

missing him ?

oh God.
so many things i wanna write here.

tau gak sih, gw baru aja chat ama seseorang yang pernah light up my days. well, we're bestfriend since i broke his heart :[ sorry .
yaa gw ga enak aja ama dia. ad cewe yg ska ama dy. and she's better than in me all the way. she's pretty and kinda stylish. tapi tu cowo gamw ama diaa, knapa? gw rasa gw tau jwbannya. dia msh ska ama yg dlu. and u know who's she.

hff. gw jd ngerasa bersalah. :s
yesterday i cried ! :(
gga twu napa,,
yea, since we broke up gw ngerasa ada something's missing.
well, it might be, gw blom bsa ngebiasain diri sama status gw skrg.
if i say, i'm happy being single, it's not 100% right. i'm not that happy.
sometimes, when you need someone to talk to, someone to say i love you to, someone who says i love u to you and says goodnight to you when you're going to sleep, you gonna miss a boyfriend.
"time can heal the pain". yeah. i believe it. just be patient girl.

tadi classmeeting. we lose. haha.
i'm not so good in volley. and i think i hvn't played volley before. hhaha.

i must go now. i haven't had my dinner yet. bye. :D

great dayy

heya. i've moved from vanessanatasya.blogspot.com to this.
cha said, i deleted some codes that made my post didn't appear.
okay , shit happens, i dont know how to fix it !

hell yea, i've already finished all the final tests. so then, after school, me, and some peeps went out together. firstly, we planned to watch some movie. yea, indiana jones [i haven't watched it] . damn, the film had already started when we arrived @ elos . so then, we canceled our plan because the next film would be on 3 pm. some of us could not .

we decided to have lunch [second lunch maybe] @ met liefde cafe . we like to try some new cafe or restaurant . :3
yea.. not bad la . i bought a drink . shit, what was it? i forgot the name. :(
well, it tasted good at the first. remember , only the first .

hmm .. i think it's enough for today . i gotta do some chat with my peeps. :) see ya. :D